- i August/September 1977 RAIN Page 11 I AM RAGE. I am a srorm, dark, heavv. omnipotcnt. I am unmitigated violence. I am fury, exploding, blinding lighrning, roanng thunder, howling wind. isurse' like the sea, unconrrollJle in .y ,^f.. , I am hot, volcano spewing rnott.ri hate. I am unstoppabli, she 6ear pro_ tecting my cubs. I am outraged, bu.k_ ling earth swallowing towns and cities whole. I am bombs guns knives kicks punches slaps insults. I am hurt impenetrable. I am hurt invulnerable. I tear my victims apart with talons and beak, claws and fangs. Like a female preying mantis, I eat my"lover's head as he penetrates me with our own species' destiny. I am concentrated death, angry rattlesnake. DON'T TREAD ON ME. I am mugger thief rapisr. I am greed murderlust. I am arson pillage wa"r. I am laughing whore smug dori juan bully con artist. I am mean cr-uel unfair. I am pain that strikes back. I am pain that won't cry, tears that hurt, unloved, alone, Anger is our re_ venge on the world for mistreating us. Anger-is our punishment to the injus_ tice of life. Angcr is our way of regain_ rng our potency and control. Anger can De a way to re-connect with the world. Anger^is, basically, away of being sepa_ rated trom our enormous hurt and cxpressed) expectations of them. The clearest way to express anger is in terms ot our unmet needs. The often used model for expressins anq€r (and orher ,,ncgarive,' fceiings) isl . I feel (emotion) when you (noiblameful description of tieir bebaaior) because (tangible effects on me). . .t*rpO1.' I fcel angry and disappointed when you cbarge me $2(i more to Jtx my car tban you estimated and it's still broken because I now neirber baae a car to driae to work or any money. , If we are unwilling to express Che hurt that we feel as ,.-rlg., to the people that we hold responsible, we can stili release that anger (which is psychologically and physically much heaithier tlan holding it in). We ian shout sromp curse kick punch pillow, we can get friJnds to b.e surrogates for the peJple we are mad at. Although n-on-speciiic anger release helps us to fcel bctter, in Jrdcr to let go of this anger we need to be aware of who we are angry with. Ex_ p-resslng our anger allows us to forgive. Hanging on ro angcr can be a *"y io malntaln dlstance with a person and/or to conrinuously punish them. F.ighting with a person can be a way ro a"itroy" the badness in a relationship . . . or to destroy the relationship. I was angry witb my friend. I-rold my uratb, my'wratb did end. t uas angry witb my loe. , ,o.1./.,,J. nL,t, m! ,iotb did gror. William Blake,,4 poison .t-ree vulnerabiliry. won't form. I am lifetimes of being abused misused, not understood. I have been the ill fortune of countless parents. I am the victim of all their impotency and fury. - I am angry beyond comprehension. I am canccr of rage, wirh no control I shout curse slam kick break threaten destroy kill. What to do with anser . . . Express you. rng".."If the anger is cur_ rent, we can express it towards the person(s), circumstance, machine, insti_ tution, thar wc are angry at. (NOTE: I Detleve that no one causes our anger. Other people and situations "r. , .?,^ lyst or exc-use for our getring ln tou.t wrrh rhar feeling which problbly is al_ ready.there. As anger is a way to auoid lsurt, burt can also be a ua.y to auoid anger.) , Ytny pcople are afraid to express their anger becausc they bclieve rhev will dcstroy the victimi of their ang!r. Many times I have heard smiling, aigry pcople say "l can't ger angry ar-him7 her. I'll hurt him/hci.,' Th"eie p.;;i; prefer to hurt themselves rarh;r than to release that h_urt by sharing i, *iiii ,f,." person thar they hold rcsp-onsiblc. Obviously, we arc angry b..rur. *. were not treated as we wanted. Someone did not meet our (expressed or unam revenge. am avenger. I am frail human being, unwilling to accepr my frailty. I am anger. What is Anger? Anger is our reacrion to feeling/being -Leaf Diamant Tbe SIIN, March 1977 E p. 129, l3o Urban Bikeway Design Collaborative 635 C St., N.E. Washington, DC 2OOO2 p. 155, 156 Maine Land Adaocate and Sam Elv Community Scrvices are at: P.O. Box 2762 183-ll2 Water St. Augusta, ME 04330 p. 169, t7o Food Co-op projcct 106 Girard Ave., S.E., No. I l0 Albuquerque, NM 87106 p.180 Madness Network News 558 Capp St. San Francisco, CA 94110 p.183 The clinic discount rate for Our Bodies, Ourselaes,is 75 percent, or $1.50 plus posrage. 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